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<feed xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom"><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-11-10:/</id><title>VPT Poetry Retrospective</title><link rel="self" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/feed/atom/posts/"/><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/"/><generator version="1.0">MokoFeed</generator><updated>2009-11-10T16:23:26+01:00</updated><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-11-09:/2009/11/09/twenty-years-of-anniversary-7335687/</id><title>Twenty Years Of Anniversary</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/11/09/twenty-years-of-anniversary-7335687/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-11-09T08:57:30+01:00</published><updated>2009-11-09T08:57:30+01:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;It is important to be a day ahead of a date that is important to the public image of the state- otherwise  and on the very anniversary date of, let’s say, a social revolution or anarchy, one’s opinion may be blocked into silence by the supervising security departments that are too loaded with checking to allow for more material to traffic on the information lines.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;There is one starting point that I can take when thinking of November 10, 1989, and it is the one I took when I first learned that the political bureau of the Bulgarian communist party had resigned their leader after over thirty years of his being in post, and were introducing a political change. Such changes are like two huge underwater icebergs, one of which represents the priority of business over any social life, and the other represents the priority of interest over any other individual or group.&lt;br&gt;
The tops of the two icebergs, correspondingly that of politics and that of social relationships, can  melt with the global warming or take various shapes in various dimensions, can be judged to be causes right or wrong when seen from the different aspects at which a business or a person is standing. The important thing is that no business structure suffered any major change in the commemorated past twenty years, though business went through a metamorphosis from belonging to private owners before the socialist revolution of 1944, then getting nationalized by the state, then given, in 1989, to people affiliated to political and security structures to manage, and now included in larger global structures. What changed was the system that worked or blocked the economic flows, the system of appropriateness which changed the staff that comprised the social elements of the business structures, and the security system that controlled the public behaviour and informativeness, with as many combinations of matching in the achieved result tools as many are the business or social levels and the business or social locations.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The generations born after there twenty years will need to know little about the period of socialism and capitalism divided to independently work on the same projects with just a few people allowed to cross the professional borders and exchange information vital to the creation of next projects, nor will those generations need to learn about the transition period of the past twenty years when the uniform- because it was created on opposition-  social iceberg turned into stable economic pillars of opposite charge of the same elements to carry the stable world flows: of capital whose possession is scattered in bonds, of information to which access is restricted, of  labour that is produced in the work-hand industries, of goods produced in restricted amounts to support the easy control of any consummation, of production that can be experimented with at any time and in the name of the people who will live away from the planet earth, of Know-How that recognizes no individual inventor and is valid only when developed in a business laboratory, of doctrines that are so evasive to the people that one would rather work than hope, like turning on the TV set to watch the commercials rather than getting mad when a commercial interrupts something that needs concentration to get to like it.&lt;br&gt;
In line with the celebrations on the more or less 20-year global anniversary of closing an economic and social project that unified Europe after World War 2, here is an old poem of mine:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;DUES&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Shadows of light ahead of us&lt;br&gt;
predetermining each action&lt;br&gt;
who will measure how fast&lt;br&gt;
you can ease or torque our tension&lt;br&gt;
Who's the sun, a hope in front&lt;br&gt;
to be liked or to be trusted&lt;br&gt;
If I like the sun, you'll trust&lt;br&gt;
Each one's option right and asked for&lt;br&gt;
Who'll be there, the light we see,&lt;br&gt;
by me liked, and by you trusted&lt;br&gt;
We'll achieve that so complete&lt;br&gt;
union of two souls fastened&lt;br&gt;
Who's the child there to be born&lt;br&gt;
whom I'll gladly give my name to,&lt;br&gt;
Nothing else mine will belong&lt;br&gt;
to us but the name material&lt;br&gt;
They say we have lots of lives&lt;br&gt;
following upon each other&lt;br&gt;
I have here now survived&lt;br&gt;
using all my lives, no other&lt;br&gt;
Someone, somewhere, weary, wrong&lt;br&gt;
didn't speculate on this truth&lt;br&gt;
that our shadows future, strong,&lt;br&gt;
predetermine all that we do&lt;br&gt;
Those shadows of time and life,&lt;br&gt;
their life-gist's speculation&lt;br&gt;
on how good or wrong or right&lt;br&gt;
we have been in our actions&lt;br&gt;
Each one ray of effort light&lt;br&gt;
is clad in a latent darkness,&lt;br&gt;
we cannot reach on too far&lt;br&gt;
if our shadows miss their targets&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva 09.11.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/11/09/twenty-years-of-anniversary-7335687/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-10-22:/2009/10/22/the-howl-of-the-fine-weather-7220744/</id><title>The Howl Of The Fine Weather</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/10/22/the-howl-of-the-fine-weather-7220744/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-10-22T07:40:19+02:00</published><updated>2009-10-22T07:40:19+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Maybe it’s the early cold and the coming late autumn and winter months.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is the campaign of the administration of the block entrance to clear- with the help of a couple of polyglot laborours and their horse carts- the common entrance premises of the junk accumulated over the years.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is a special new resident moving into the block.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is the moving out of the old system of organization of a social core around a common problem that is protected as necessary to balance existence by some administrative institutions, and fought versus by peer others.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is the necessity to develop new human traits on the permeating indignation.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is the business circles of the social and administration organizations that are creating common problems to fully engage the emotions and fear of the general public, and the time and effort of many pensioner functionaries blocked between own survival instincts that ban any discussion on existing problems, and own awareness of the world’s psychological projects, which necessitates subtle management so that the contingent of subordinates survives.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is the dog upstairs that jumps and plays about day and night but for a cheered short night walk.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is the white dog next-door, replaced by a black one now, that suddenly left to leave me with a new instinct for neighbours and pets.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is my recalling the two dogs that dashed from opposite the block to snap at my neck.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is the fact is that under one per cent of the house dogs are registered as having owners responsible for the dogs’ actions.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe it is the latest victim of strays that triggered mass media discussion on the stray common problem.&lt;br&gt;
Maybe something else makes me remember this old poem of mine:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The Howl Of The Fine Weather&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The howl of the weather fine is terrifying&lt;br&gt;
The cold chimney now mourns a missing life&lt;br&gt;
The season’s gathering its clouds in the high skies&lt;br&gt;
The wind is sweeping its streets of the gathered dust&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A door stored on a balcony is banging&lt;br&gt;
The passage cleared by the missing door&lt;br&gt;
made a connection which no one is taking,&lt;br&gt;
but is another chimney huge, another hall&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A parent’s crying, stable, grown, honest&lt;br&gt;
He was a pillar of the old spreading days&lt;br&gt;
His daughter’s now missing, claimed for being modest&lt;br&gt;
and ready, with her fate, to home-anchor ways&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The world has chimneys cold, and its trains burning&lt;br&gt;
The world has plans for weathers, weathers for the world&lt;br&gt;
In all the seasons, both have moves most winning&lt;br&gt;
But in the crowds motley, nobody’s weep is heard&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The howl of the weather fine is terrifying&lt;br&gt;
The cold chimney now mourns a missing life&lt;br&gt;
The season’s gathering its clouds in the high skies&lt;br&gt;
The wind is sweeping its streets of the gathered dust&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 1.03.2008&lt;br&gt;
(‘Dorman’, ‘Directions’, ISBN  978 954 91614 7 2)&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  22.10.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/10/22/the-howl-of-the-fine-weather-7220744/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-10-17:/2009/10/17/whispers-a-future-musical-7185803/</id><title>Whispers, a Future Musical</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/10/17/whispers-a-future-musical-7185803/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-10-17T08:12:07+02:00</published><updated>2009-10-17T08:12:07+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Now that the administration quartet of  a) places responsible for social disruption, b) those responsible for social complaint, c) the ones in charge of social amendment, and d) places responsible for social restructuring, is brushing the dust off the materials gathered for short-term, middle-term, long-term, or eternal, application, while applying the trick to tail-sweep the traces behind, as well as, the way lying ahead, I need not wonder if the centuries to come will be quite sure where to look for information about who I was and what was the role of the world in my endeavour to turn poet. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;One thing there is for certain, and it is that the more effort I apply in producing perfection to be liked by my teaching experience, the more amusing is the fact that no matter what masterpieces I write, the world will not accept them as nothing but good products unsupported by the poet’s participation in structure events, nor will the world give me postmortem tribute as I will have left a legacy saying that a dead body can’t get warm, no matter with how many blankets you pile over it.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line with the above, here is a poem of ‘Whispers’ that will be a musical some day, but not before I write the text and compose the music- two self-assigned tasks, the latter of which rather impossible for the time being (some other poems are at  poetrypoem.com/author909, though not the whole of ‘Whispers’ will go there, or anywhere yet settled):&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Whispers Poem 10&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A blooming spring in early snow&lt;br&gt;
Her life’s a spring postponed for fall&lt;br&gt;
No snowdrop heads, sprightly, wise and low&lt;br&gt;
No apples ripe with harvest calls&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;She’s the image of time modern&lt;br&gt;
The image of time and life real&lt;br&gt;
Chased is by all who fall in cornered&lt;br&gt;
to verify belongings, deals&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;She’s chasing, through a wizard feeling,&lt;br&gt;
all who have chased and followed her&lt;br&gt;
All getting paid, or with the instinct&lt;br&gt;
to make their rivals do their work&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Time influences her a little&lt;br&gt;
Time rides her back to make a hunch&lt;br&gt;
Time weathers her head tough and brittle&lt;br&gt;
Her hair flies to seek its bunch &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Her face strains hard to reach achievement&lt;br&gt;
Strain smiles, grinning at defeat&lt;br&gt;
Achievement’s closer to instinct&lt;br&gt;
Escape’s more precious than a feat&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;One eye emitting light foreseeing&lt;br&gt;
The other skilful in catching light&lt;br&gt;
She measures distance from-to, bridging&lt;br&gt;
the present now to the future’s past &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Her arms are always holding something&lt;br&gt;
A something close to her chest&lt;br&gt;
At times, it is a child lovely&lt;br&gt;
At times, a finding cherished best&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;At times, ransacked container contents&lt;br&gt;
Sometimes, a precious purchased load&lt;br&gt;
Sometimes, just space that must stay close&lt;br&gt;
for energy resourceful, cold&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Thin legs have suffered famine’s plague&lt;br&gt;
Wounds where motion is denied&lt;br&gt;
Feet trained to hook and hold the frame,&lt;br&gt;
or ballet-pose for a flight&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A beautiful, a pretty, lady&lt;br&gt;
Seen to be such by many men&lt;br&gt;
Attention reaching her in plenty&lt;br&gt;
Her life so bleak, she can’t complain&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;An envied by all women lady&lt;br&gt;
Intrigued about by that score&lt;br&gt;
who’ll wrench a hen’s head for no laying&lt;br&gt;
From tables fancy driven off&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A blooming spring in early snow&lt;br&gt;
Her life’s a spring postponed for fall&lt;br&gt;
No snowdrop heads, sprightly, wise and low&lt;br&gt;
No apples ripe with harvest calls&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.  (26.01.2009)26.01.2009&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva 17.10.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/10/17/whispers-a-future-musical-7185803/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-10-04:/2009/10/04/whispers-poem-7094402/</id><title>Whispers, Poem 5</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/10/04/whispers-poem-7094402/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-10-04T08:11:10+02:00</published><updated>2009-10-04T08:11:10+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;I have gone as far as to imagine a curtain hiding the stage from the audience- there is a large flower inside a jar upon the curtain. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Drawn, the curtain keeps the outlines of the jar only, while a swirl of characters and situations slowly configurate the flower on the stage.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Here is Whispers, Poem 5:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The past is whispering its unforgotten, buried, dreams&lt;br&gt;
The present is replying with remorse and pity&lt;br&gt;
Upon a stall, a seller’s selling, for a trifle, some expensive things&lt;br&gt;
Arrayed, there wait some flowers in bunches withered,&lt;br&gt;
and fruit preserved for cold winter in transparent jars&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A man is blocked in supervising from afar, away,&lt;br&gt;
unless the flowers withered get their water vase,&lt;br&gt;
unless the fruit preserved gets out and dries wane,&lt;br&gt;
unless the seller finds an opening for thought and taking part&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The past sends, one by one, its flowers and their stories&lt;br&gt;
The present shows, one by one, its practically precious jars&lt;br&gt;
Their whispers come across and dash to reach their unknown homes&lt;br&gt;
Life’s products, made to be consumed, to rot, or wither, stay behind &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The past is whispering its unforgotten, buried, dreams&lt;br&gt;
The present is replying with remorse and pity&lt;br&gt;
Upon a stall, a seller’s selling, for a trifle, some expensive things&lt;br&gt;
Arrayed, there wait some flowers in bunches withered,&lt;br&gt;
and fruit preserved for cold winter in transparent jars&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 3.10.2009&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/10/04/whispers-poem-7094402/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-29:/2009/09/29/to-be-continued-7059479/</id><title>To Be Continued</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/29/to-be-continued-7059479/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-29T07:56:49+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-29T07:56:49+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Now that my son and literary heir needs a humbler me to be able to prepare for his next failure sitting of his graduation exam, I guess that I will have to put away my talent’s regalia and quietly write ‘Whispers’, a play in verse for a musical no one will compose, but I will have set the beginning of a more general trend towards the composition of musicals.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Here is the sentence of today (a transformed sentence of yesterday) in verse:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A war is waging, waging, waging,&lt;br&gt;
somewhere on the patch-work earth&lt;br&gt;
A woman peasant’s climbing, climbing,&lt;br&gt;
job ladders to see all the world&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The war is seen, the war is given&lt;br&gt;
Some profit with retribute mirth&lt;br&gt;
The peasant woman is directing&lt;br&gt;
from top positions war and earth&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Low, low, in the pits of countries done,&lt;br&gt;
the pyramids of starving and fattening are built&lt;br&gt;
Low, low, under bombs, the starvers’ gross income,&lt;br&gt;
drops bombs as if disguised as fortune’s hellish yield&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.  29.09.2009&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  29.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/29/to-be-continued-7059479/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-28:/2009/09/28/a-sentence-in-verse-7054364/</id><title>A Sentence In Verse</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/28/a-sentence-in-verse-7054364/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-28T12:07:58+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-28T12:07:58+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;The sentence of today is now part of my future musical ‘Whispers’:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Two Women&lt;br&gt;
There’s a fiction author, sits confined&lt;br&gt;
with a composer of social hives&lt;br&gt;
Both authors are polite and kind&lt;br&gt;
Both stern and sticking to own side&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The author first evades the clash,&lt;br&gt;
looks at a tree that’s winter-bound:&lt;br&gt;
leaf bunches in green-yellow rashed&lt;br&gt;
upon a blue chased off by clouds &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The clouds pass the graveyard sunny&lt;br&gt;
Deer sleepers there are covered with earth&lt;br&gt;
One moment beds gape in the ground,&lt;br&gt;
the next they’re bigger than mole hills&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The second author is collecting-&lt;br&gt;
the gathered clues can be processed&lt;br&gt;
She used to heal, but also practised&lt;br&gt;
the skills that go with army ranks   &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;How many in the graveyard-city&lt;br&gt;
were lied to, or were liars worth&lt;br&gt;
How many’ll be forever pitied&lt;br&gt;
How many got what they deserved&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 27.09.2009&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I wonder what verse will come out of the next sentence:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;When a country subsides a war through tools increasing the country’s economic effort needed for covering a monetary debt, and when a family is slowly falling apart and can no longer be collectively controlled by the principle of orders coming along the gridlines of professional belonging, and along the gridlines of structural order, then the man charged with the responsibility to sign the subsidiary  long-term economic bond, and the woman involved in strategic projects without her knowledge, are two pawns not only moved but also sacrificed: the man is sacrificed by his country in the name of a new policy, and the woman sacrificed by her closest kin in the name of keeping their former belonging a secret.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva 28.09.2009   Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/28/a-sentence-in-verse-7054364/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-27:/2009/09/27/a-sentence-at-a-time-7047850/</id><title>A Sentence at a Time</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/27/a-sentence-at-a-time-7047850/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-27T10:43:01+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-27T10:43:01+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Here is one more sentence of ‘Whispers’:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;When an author of fiction is confined with an author of social relationships, both authors politely outstand their aspects of the binary wish to involve in, or stay away from, social pyramids- the first author evades the direct clash and looks at a tree that is winter-bound in bunches of yellow and green upon a sky of blue getting conquered by determined clouds coming from the graveyard; and the second author gathers clues for a future manipulation that will verify his or her nature developed on a combination of civil profession and military rank.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  27.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/27/a-sentence-at-a-time-7047850/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-21:/2009/09/21/writing-and-medicine-7007798/</id><title>Writing And Medicine</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/21/writing-and-medicine-7007798/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-21T08:10:12+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-21T08:10:12+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Writing is medicine to the nerves, though an occupation different from the aristocratic secrecy of the medical profession- so different that nobody will call writing a business like the name by which medicine goes, but no one calls an author in emergency either. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;There are two aspects in which writing plays inventive and produces ideas based on the relationship of medicine with life- one aspect is when a literary work takes parts from life’s living body while keeping life’s brain blocked to eliminate the threat of residing impulses getting transferred, and the second aspect is when malfunctioning parts are taken out and given to a completely healthy body to cure them with time.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Here is the first rhymed part of ‘Whispers’:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Whispers&lt;br&gt;
A long weekend, the city’s out in the country&lt;br&gt;
The autumn’s shrinking into produce and in quiet moods&lt;br&gt;
The buildings watch through eyes whose job is guarding&lt;br&gt;
The trees are carpeting their outskirts with fallen fruits&lt;br&gt;
She walks to meet a man of nature&lt;br&gt;
So many men have come across to meet&lt;br&gt;
But as she passes, memories age-old clatter&lt;br&gt;
Each one connected back along old links&lt;br&gt;
The men she hates, despises, fears&lt;br&gt;
The men she envies and will imitate&lt;br&gt;
The ones she will not go near&lt;br&gt;
The ones that catch, for whom she’s bait&lt;br&gt;
The past was easy, taken, lived through&lt;br&gt;
A past that took, from her, today&lt;br&gt;
The present is unreal, with life dues&lt;br&gt;
A present that gives to the past its day&lt;br&gt;
He calculates the strengths directed&lt;br&gt;
An opposition in exchange&lt;br&gt;
His past does whisper to his present&lt;br&gt;
His present whispers to his past&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 20.09.2009&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  21.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/21/writing-and-medicine-7007798/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-19:/2009/09/19/what-if-6995952/</id><title>What If</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/19/what-if-6995952/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-19T13:33:48+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-19T13:33:48+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;What if my idea to write the play for a musical turns into another failure in writing a good enough play for any but self-publication like my plays based on ‘Dorman’ (Plays at &lt;a href="http://vpt.hit.bg),"&gt;http://vpt.hit.bg),&lt;/a&gt; or triggers a new round of checking out my personality and occupations. Would it not be much better to continue with my poetry retrospective and see what long piece I have in poetry on the motley background of real life, adding to the resultant picture- where the background gulps the figures in focus- this old poem of mine:&lt;br&gt;
ASKING&lt;br&gt;
What will you do first thing at dawn?&lt;br&gt;
I heard a sick man ask&lt;br&gt;
I'll thank the world that I was born,&lt;br&gt;
for my chance to do tasks&lt;br&gt;
You shouldn't do that, thanks it should&lt;br&gt;
give you for being round&lt;br&gt;
The world' s now desperate to prove&lt;br&gt;
its right to get you bound&lt;br&gt;
What was today that you saw first?&lt;br&gt;
A weak man I heard say&lt;br&gt;
I saw a glittering small bird&lt;br&gt;
when I looked at the day&lt;br&gt;
You shouldn't have done that again,&lt;br&gt;
a one time's just enough&lt;br&gt;
You should have found the right place&lt;br&gt;
and someone you can love&lt;br&gt;
What did you do last thing last night?&lt;br&gt;
An active man asked me&lt;br&gt;
I found a one man to fight,&lt;br&gt;
the person who fells trees&lt;br&gt;
I can't afford to lose again,&lt;br&gt;
lost branches, birds and play&lt;br&gt;
Now I shall join in the chain&lt;br&gt;
but can't participate&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva 19.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/19/what-if-6995952/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-17:/2009/09/17/whispers-6981406/</id><title>‘”Whispers”’</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/17/whispers-6981406/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-17T07:54:13+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-17T07:54:13+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;If I say once more that my novel ‘Whispers’ is going very well and I am ready to write its next sentence, I may derange a fan into fury and action against repetition, that is why I will now say that my novel is following my old plan to write the play for a musical, and that the next sentence, still in plain form, is:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The global business and political policy that gave the structures the right to choose their men, or gave chosen men the right to create whatever structures they thought fit- the first direction towards creation leading into stability and the second into anarchy- was all around an apartment where, at a table that could be called round because the tablecloth fell almost evenly on all its side, a man was sleeping, clasped over a script, and was dreaming the happy moments of power proper to when a film director selects the staff for his future film.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva 17.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/17/whispers-6981406/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-15:/2009/09/15/whispers-6968798/</id><title>“Whispers”</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/15/whispers-6968798/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-15T12:48:48+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-15T12:48:48+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;My novel “Whispers” is going very well, and I am ready to write its third sentence following the second sentence:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The city was a growing ball of relationships wound over one another in layers that traced back along  the applied policies, and revealed in cross sections the features of compatibility that pointed to how small the world was when seen in its whole, and how huge if examined in the variety of its elements: some intent on motion, though with no idea about where to stop, some uncertain about which way to go,  though charged with the strong wish to participate.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva 15.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/15/whispers-6968798/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-12:/2009/09/12/whispers-6946389/</id><title>‘Whispers’</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/12/whispers-6946389/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-12T07:30:13+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-12T07:30:13+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;The writing of my novel ‘Whispers’ is going on very well no matter how distracted I am into making  attempts to understand  the arguments of the President and those of the Prime Minister concerning the circulation of energy supplies, arguments that set the state’s parametre of the global economy and the economics’ parametre of state funding.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Really, the writing of my novel ‘Whispers’ is going on very well and I am almost ready to write its second sentence after this first that reads: &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The residential block was about to be cleared of cockroaches with a special concoction sprayed- an initiative coming from the younger generation of the previous social gurus as an alternative option to repairing the roof; an initiative giving business, allowing access into inhabited areas, and preventing hordes of cockroaches from crawling around, scared by the microwave vibrations which the residential area was to be exposed to in the name of creating stability, a steady weather, or security.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  12.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/12/whispers-6946389/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-05:/2009/09/05/at-the-stable-desk-6895195/</id><title>At The Stable Desk</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/05/at-the-stable-desk-6895195/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-05T07:32:11+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-05T07:32:11+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;My future novel, called ‘Whispers’, is promising to be a good one, but I do not know if the simple strategy I am applying in writing it will not turn out to be a rather complicated one if it bases on images drawn from the past twenty years like:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;the policeman under double stress who is supporting the law levels, but also pretending to be liberal to the creation of the levels of organized crime&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;the doctor who is burdened with the dilemma to cure a patient or to provide the hospital with another  donor for the advance of science in the direction of proving that an old body can live longer if some of its parts are substituted with elements from a younger body&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;the military officer who must meander, participating in all the campaigns of the big state and business policies while keeping himself outside the effects of those policies&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;the administration clerk who has a stable chair at a stable desk, and a stable bonus to a stable salary for staying not bribed by clients desperately rattling in the administration chambers formed by the walls of rights and opportunities, and roofed by restrictions of appropriate historical time, relevant to business location, allowed partnership, and politically supported investment&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;the.....&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Well, if one wants to read, or write, something, one must spare the time and apply the necessary skills. I must sit at my desk, meander to avoid my ideas for better occupation, call from my past a bit of youth to reinforce my inspiration, and step on the world’s organized levels to find characters as orderly and clear as the diamond structure.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  5.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/05/at-the-stable-desk-6895195/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-09-04:/2009/09/04/ask-the-impostor-to-write-a-poem-about-the-sun-6889625/</id><title>Ask the Impostor to Write a Poem About The Sun</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/04/ask-the-impostor-to-write-a-poem-about-the-sun-6889625/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-09-04T12:29:22+02:00</published><updated>2009-09-04T12:29:22+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;There are two basic spheres: economic and social.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Now that the military structures are shredding off their economically independent administration sub-division, the Ministry of Administration no longer exists, and the State Information Bureau has been  announced to have spent lavishly on irrelevant purchases, what can one think but that the first institution has exhausted the funds that temporarily supported redundant officers, the second is handing over the power and tools for granting or blocking entrepreneurship, and the third can no longer place orders for services with firms whose heads cannot be officially hired as consultants on serious matters.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The global stability for Bulgaria bases on the economic levels and the social pyramids, like anywhere in the world, and a person can seek a working position as a specialist in a social-economic pyramid, or a business niche in an economic-social level. In other words, the global stability bases on the principles of the socialist and the capitalist systems combined. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;It may prove to be innerving both to the survivors who have been hoping for a still period to be able to take  a relaxing breath, and to the drop-outs from the fake structures that lined the basic ones all through the past couple of decades. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In one word, a social war is about to start in Bulgaria between the already settled social layers and the elements settling down from the levels now renewed with foreign import of specialists and specialists returning from abroad- where they were lured to go, driven out of the country by the numerous  reforms- to introduce the parameters of uniformity in performance and organization.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I am not sure that the novel I am writing will be as good as “Dorman”(http://vpt.hit.bg), nor that I will not be distracted into proving my identity and independence, that I can write a poem nobody can imitate, or that I am not planning to sell my half of my apartment, or that I know enough of English to have taught at the Bulgarian comprehensive schools, or that I can take care of myself if I am not set up in a situation where my good manners and my endurance are tested.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Here is a poem written on September 4th, 1997, when I attended a training course, with two lovely ladies, Janet and Priscilla, come a bit too late to teach me what I had already found through practice: &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Late&lt;br&gt;
It was the hour&lt;br&gt;
It was half past&lt;br&gt;
He looked inside to wake her up&lt;br&gt;
She wasn’t there&lt;br&gt;
She had got up&lt;br&gt;
He’d lain awake&lt;br&gt;
to be in time&lt;br&gt;
she’d lain awake&lt;br&gt;
because of him&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.  4.09.1997&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  4.09.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/09/04/ask-the-impostor-to-write-a-poem-about-the-sun-6889625/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-08-25:/2009/08/25/a-common-conviction-6820839/</id><title>A Common Conviction</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/08/25/a-common-conviction-6820839/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-08-25T19:41:55+02:00</published><updated>2009-08-25T19:41:55+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;There is one common conviction that claims: when people reach the boundaries of their competence and their freedom to improve their own environment and prospects, people use own skills and status to meddle with the lives of other people.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Now that the latest stage of tracing routes and levels for the structures extending into an economically stagnated Bulgaria, is waiting for the summer holidays to end, and the global coverage co-ordination surveillance is borrowing the idea of social events financing economic plans, the socialist period structures that existed between the belief that they belonged to the people and their subordination to bank endebtment, seem ready to come out dressed in such a motley bondage and alliance clothing that one may hope to be safe and sane enough to watch the future scandals from aside and evade all obstacles as if they were as harmless in their anonymity as is an armchair placed at one’s apartment door to block, or eavesdrop, or store messages, or stimulate reaction, or assign a job to the future to move, replace, or amend- now when the boundaries of competence the home affairs structures have been reached and the skills of the redundant staff must be employed, be it pointless occupations, lest they are used in spontaneous confrontation.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line, here is my latest poem:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In The City&lt;br&gt;
While hiding from the city’s notice my own weakness,&lt;br&gt;
I stumble over my own plans and aims&lt;br&gt;
While hiding from the city’s notice my own meekness&lt;br&gt;
I drop achievements I so hard attained&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The city is indifferent, won’t help or interfere&lt;br&gt;
I don’t befit in any fate or destination cell&lt;br&gt;
A warden’s look believing, frank and clear,&lt;br&gt;
knows not whom me-  the harmless one-  will fell&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The city is indifferent, won’t help or interfere&lt;br&gt;
I’m heading to my self-produced reclusive hut&lt;br&gt;
A chimney sweeper is a blessing I pass near,&lt;br&gt;
but my hands full of life can’t touch for bits of luck&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Ambitious to survive inside the motley city,&lt;br&gt;
I’m jealous and afraid of the ambitions to succeed&lt;br&gt;
The beauty I can’t buy not get its lovely pity,&lt;br&gt;
is based on style paid, and style is based on it&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The city’s clean on this hot summer morning&lt;br&gt;
The sun is bleaching heads and raised by sweepers dust&lt;br&gt;
The city’s disappointed on this uncertain morning&lt;br&gt;
that it’s a holiday, a workday, promise, opportunity, and lust&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The city’s greedy in its pleasures old, common&lt;br&gt;
It’s organized by people and for people in exchange&lt;br&gt;
Some stick to their joy to find, to use, to prosper&lt;br&gt;
Some have achieved a balance that does really irritate&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The city is, of its own residents, all independent&lt;br&gt;
Its people, independently live in their cells, all free&lt;br&gt;
Their anthem bordering on land above and land downstairs,&lt;br&gt;
is city’s heart and will voiced in a song of the blue sea&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The city is, of all its residents, all independent&lt;br&gt;
Its people heading to their self-produced recluse&lt;br&gt;
They have no time to answer the reporters’ questions&lt;br&gt;
because they’re in hurry to watch the evening news&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 23.08.2009&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  25.08.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/08/25/a-common-conviction-6820839/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-08-04:/2009/08/04/a-science-fiction-story-6648330/</id><title>A Science Fiction Story</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/08/04/a-science-fiction-story-6648330/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-08-04T11:06:31+02:00</published><updated>2009-08-04T11:06:31+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;
I seem to be attracted to blended writing, and if I finish the story below it will border on science fiction and love, like most of my poems:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A Science Fiction Story&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;It was a lovely sunset.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The sun and a couple of satellites decided on a short truce for as long as a kiss could last.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The satellites were happy because they were burdened with the creation of additional atmospheric pressure under the horizontal blanket of short waves they were emitting, a blanket that blocked the natural exchange of energy between the earth and the space around it, sort of a roof that ensured the earth with a stable global climate that could be edited by location and season, though it also brought in the problem of the greenhouse effect with which mankind had not yet learned how to cope.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The sun was less happy because it was engaged in proving an own theory of creation, namely that it is not stars that turn into planets with cooling on their outside, nor is it that planets turn into stars with their hot cores growing out, but either way round over time, with one and the same object once a star, once a planet, and then a star again.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;There were two persons on the earth engaged in occupations different due to both the difference between their jobs and the difference between their social positions- a woman who was following the whims of the sun, dubious herself on the issue of the luxury of summer, and a man who was indulged in adapting the earth to the global warming which side effect science had not yet found how to harness.&lt;br&gt;
…..&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  3-4.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/08/04/a-science-fiction-story-6648330/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-08-02:/2009/08/02/mankind-and-mankind-prime-6635653/</id><title>Mankind and Mankind Prime</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/08/02/mankind-and-mankind-prime-6635653/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-08-02T14:55:13+02:00</published><updated>2009-08-02T14:55:13+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;It’s hot in the city where money and cars dominate. It was cold some months ago, and will be again when winter comes, so there must be some balance stepped on this opposition. Something like the opposition between Mankind and Mankind Prime, the first planning to live on the earth and the second on other planets.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Some TV reporters say that anyone in this country can buy the equipment to learn what the other people are doing and saying. I think that such information is gathered by people interested in sophisticated gadgets and sold to people interested the progress which their competition is making. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;However, I find listening in on me and keeping me under observation as natural as the inconvenience of being cold in winter and hot in summer, or as essential as keeping edibles for as long as they can last and using them only after they become a sight worthless as stock.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In the future, Mankind Prime will be living on distant planets and hiding from the unknown environment, but everyone will be safe if frankly open in one’s doings and intentions to everyone else. The permanent communication links will be of great importance, and what we are now doing on the Earth is more or less developing and testing in practice the necessary equipment while breeding the human types that will not shrink from living in total exposition.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I am sure that whatever Mankind does now is in the name of Mankind Prime. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I am sure that we are now living in a historical era when the people on the earth are slowly taking a bit of a shift away from the natural into the direction of the artificial, leaving the purity of ecology to the countryside and the non-human species, and crowding in the cities to re-create those intrinsic qualities that have been lost or diluted during the different civilizations. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I am also sure that Mankind is developing those features and characteristics that will sieve and settle the people attributed to life on the earth, and will present Mankind Prime with people of the natural human aptitude to growth.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Now that balance is the topic, here is an old poem of mine about the winter: &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;AGAIN&lt;br&gt;
The raining pinetree,&lt;br&gt;
with the sun beside it,&lt;br&gt;
is letting snow white&lt;br&gt;
and cold winters down&lt;br&gt;
No clouds linger&lt;br&gt;
over it&lt;br&gt;
to hide it,&lt;br&gt;
but carried on&lt;br&gt;
by winds,&lt;br&gt;
they go round&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  2.08.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/08/02/mankind-and-mankind-prime-6635653/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-27:/2009/07/27/new-government-voted-6596476/</id><title>New Government Voted</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/27/new-government-voted-6596476/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-27T11:29:03+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-27T11:29:03+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;The Parliament has voted the new government whose alternative of  priorities seems to comprise of the integration of the country’s major business infrastructures into those of the European Union, and the settlement of local specifics into clear local business levels.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;It is a real merit global strategy has gained in as few as twenty years with the achievement of an almost velvet-gloved substitution of the trainees of the Soviet policy with those of the different western programs that base on the combination of a person’s natural aptitude and the behaviour pattern that person is led into adopting.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The period that was assigned for redistribution of influence over the country, which separated the population into the group receiving benefits coming from the west through the structures of the east, and the group enjoying new possibilities for mobility given by the eastern structures at the expense of the western populations, seems to be culminating in the formation of a local pyramid of power where all levels are controlled by local politicians and officers, both groups with a declared determination to fight against any negative legacy left from previous governments, and struggle for the country’s stability.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Any future comparison with the period directly after the introduction of the socialist regime on September 9, 1944, will be a blasphemy, though many people sense vindictiveness in the atmosphere.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I seem to have failed in my attempts at understanding the mechanisms and tools with which the global levels are gaining stability through an inner instability that steps on all sorts of confrontations.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I have an alternative: to humbly witness what is about to happen while order is being reintroduced by the law, and partially by the people who violated the law during the past twenty years, that is, be like the old man sitting on the curb to listen to the music coming out of a summer window across the street, or I may swagger around, supported by my accumulated exhaustion, and urge myself on in life, like the seemingly insane skeleton of a woman following her own encouragement of ah-aha-ah-aha-ah-aha.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I think that this blog will not be a safe place for some time, so I had better write a story about love, maybe about the impossibility of love between the Ah-Aha Woman and the Man sitting on the curb to listen.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  27.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/27/new-government-voted-6596476/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-24:/2009/07/24/cornered-by-the-biscuits-6580995/</id><title>Cornered By The Biscuits</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/24/cornered-by-the-biscuits-6580995/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-24T17:55:00+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-24T17:55:00+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;It is interesting how little I fit among the new type of supermarket customers, and how suspicious I probably look to the security cameras that keep records of my three entries into the shop over the past 10 days. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The tall fake customer who chose to stand right behind me- as if to drop something into my shoulder bag- at the openly broad biscuits counter had probably picked me out from the recordings of my previous visits and was now practising face control on a level well below his former job at the customs house. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Selecting whom to suspect has certainly something to do with the creation of new structures and the hiring of personnel that instinctively eliminates the competition of the structure architects, and more certainly than that with the human types, some of which have parted with the hope to develop the haughtiness of the impoverished aristocrat, but have stolen from their natural opponents the right to develop the instincts of the hunter.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I must read my literary itinerary named “Dorman” to see what of the social background then has turned into social specifics now. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;There certainly are more than one Benjamin now to suspect Jane Brown of interfering with her presence in the new style of pools and structures, and more than one Dorman to buy off the security cameras the recordings that turn Jane Brown into an unaware advertising agent on brochures and book covers.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I must rewrite “Dorman” and make it a more serious book.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  24.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/24/cornered-by-the-biscuits-6580995/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-23:/2009/07/23/smallness-6571140/</id><title>Smallness</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/23/smallness-6571140/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-23T08:46:51+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-23T08:46:51+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Living in a small apartment in an entrance of larger apartments places one in the position of a minority that has an equal share in covering the costs of common repairs and innovations by the principle of ‘as many apartments as many shares’. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Local rules rarely observe laws, and when a local  majority is strong enough to abstain its group’s interests, one may turn into the ‘black sheep’ that either obeys or is ousted. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The protests of the minority against the unfairness may be good-humouredly interpreted as insanity or seen as aggression, both of which a clever minority may elude with small picks from the common ‘pie’ or silently suffer.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line with getting civilized, which I have certainly gone through, ware or unaware of its mechanisms, here is an old poem of mine:&lt;br&gt;
A Compassionate Thought&lt;br&gt;
I will be hungry, will be thirsty&lt;br&gt;
What will be then the helping hand&lt;br&gt;
The memory of this now plenty&lt;br&gt;
or that someone is what I am&lt;br&gt;
The prime is with me, though scared,&lt;br&gt;
but almost equal to thirst&lt;br&gt;
It will stay tired, with me paired&lt;br&gt;
and wait for me to leave it first&lt;br&gt;
I fought my road, left life in ambush&lt;br&gt;
Above my head's the dome of skies&lt;br&gt;
One of the moody fate-announcers&lt;br&gt;
takes his own turn to read my sign&lt;br&gt;
The world's progressing, breaking, building,&lt;br&gt;
preparing in rearguard&lt;br&gt;
Its overlapping, tapping, spinning,&lt;br&gt;
is something better, someone's start&lt;br&gt;
Who needs some water, I am drinking&lt;br&gt;
Who needs some food, I eat and eat&lt;br&gt;
Will someone think that I am needing&lt;br&gt;
when sad days slap on me their leap&lt;br&gt;
I try to help you, I am thinking&lt;br&gt;
I keep and give what I have got&lt;br&gt;
Please do not leave to memos sinking&lt;br&gt;
to help me with a compassionate thought&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 25.03.2003&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  23.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/23/smallness-6571140/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-22:/2009/07/22/resignations-and-resignments-6564199/</id><title>Resignations and Resignments</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/22/resignations-and-resignments-6564199/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-22T07:03:58+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-22T07:03:58+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;There have recently been so many political resignations that the many resignments I suffered before I was permanently unemployed- though I eventually did get a deserved small teacher’s pension-  seem like training sessions.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The poem below, brimming with positive mood, was written shortly after a school’s headmistress, accompanied by the school’s psychologist and its secretary, gathered round me to see me write and sign my resignment. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;That was another historical period that brought me another resignment, all negative to my physical and mental survival, but all as customary as is for a mouse to run from the cat, hide in a hole and plan a new food expedition. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The difference between the shifts of political resignations and my instigated resignments may be found in the fact that when on no income or charity I am looking around for a job, like spreading my unused genes on the horizontal to hitch my desperate personality to whatever  source of life, while the resigning politicians, having taken turns to alter whatever, plus the education, system to the extent exacting new recruitments to mend all, will be turning their parties into business clubs. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Christmas Tree&lt;br&gt;
Around you there winds a garland,&lt;br&gt;
and stars sit quiet in your green&lt;br&gt;
No story’s told, no memory round&lt;br&gt;
to tell your feelings to your dreams&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Your feelings are for people happy&lt;br&gt;
Your dreams keep in their tunes your sighs&lt;br&gt;
Beyond this place of honoured standing&lt;br&gt;
is neither this hall, nor this night&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Don’t sleep to wake up in the morning&lt;br&gt;
with presents under your fine skirts&lt;br&gt;
Enjoy the night… enjoy…enjoying&lt;br&gt;
the quiet of a holy birth&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A year climbs up on your branches&lt;br&gt;
full of my wishes and my dreams&lt;br&gt;
Oh, Christmas Tree, let light embrace you&lt;br&gt;
Let happiness be round me&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.  4.12.2004&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  22.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/22/resignations-and-resignments-6564199/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-17:/2009/07/17/in-between-6532204/</id><title>In Between</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/17/in-between-6532204/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-17T11:19:36+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-17T11:19:36+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;The old government has resigned, the new is not yet formed, and in between both, like right after a revolution, individual interests are playing own games, checking the weak points of their natural enemies, and preparing their own ace cards for when a new change will exact by rule people of no belonging to a previously powerful structure. In one word, when one’s position in a structured order is shaken or uncertain, one has the right to create an own pyramid of information and triggers out of the people one has chosen to be a target or a resource.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;It really is a period of total uncertainty but for those people and countries that are participating in the creation of the current upper global levels.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line, here is an old poem about skies and trees:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;One Thing Only&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;There's one thing which I really love-&lt;br&gt;
the voice which penetrates my soul&lt;br&gt;
But skies are hungry, and above&lt;br&gt;
it soars into the spaces cold&lt;br&gt;
All left for me is a red light&lt;br&gt;
above the tape, all mine and turning&lt;br&gt;
My soul, strong, in need to fight,&lt;br&gt;
can lock your voice in lightnings burning&lt;br&gt;
There's one thing which I really love-&lt;br&gt;
the voice which penetrates my soul&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  17.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/17/in-between-6532204/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-14:/2009/07/14/a-new-national-assembly-ens-1077-mble-6510446/</id><title>A New National Assembly Ensеmble</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/14/a-new-national-assembly-ens-1077-mble-6510446/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-14T07:41:46+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-14T07:41:46+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;The new National Assembly is holding its first session today, and the mass media are interested in the many new people elected members of parliament. Many new people’s representatives seem shy and ready to work, many seem reluctant to undertake own steps and relaxed in their own life styles, many seem used to order and taking commands, many seem irritated by the existence of structures other than the one they are part of, many are curious about their own job, many are ready to speak about their own career, many are in a hurry to sign in and start doing, many will be giving brilliant ideas about the welfare of Bulgaria, and many, many more will be representing all the layers and levels of a country that is now the product of twenty years of structure growth and social adaptation. It is now the time to go back to writing poetry about trees, bushes, waves, and the sky with all the invisible satellites and spaceships above it:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line with my own past twenty years which seem to be quite different though affected by the globalizing past twenty years of the party workers who guarded the socialism infrastructures, and the security institutions who introduced the elements of capitalism, here is an old poem of mine:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;ALMOST LATE&lt;br&gt;
The waves&lt;br&gt;
take all&lt;br&gt;
into the bay-&lt;br&gt;
their calm,&lt;br&gt;
their hopes,&lt;br&gt;
their strength&lt;br&gt;
But they are hurrying,&lt;br&gt;
almost late,&lt;br&gt;
to span&lt;br&gt;
the whole&lt;br&gt;
sea shore length&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  14.07.2009   Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/14/a-new-national-assembly-ens-1077-mble-6510446/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-10:/2009/07/10/jars-for-bread-pension-for-security-6485088/</id><title>Jars for Bread, Pension for Security</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/10/jars-for-bread-pension-for-security-6485088/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-10T15:33:30+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-10T15:33:30+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;On one and the same day, many people have ideas about sharing the scanty means left. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The gathered over the years, empty glass jars which I sold today at the equivalent of two euro cents each, will buy me a loaf of bread tomorrow. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The many notices in the block entrance alarming to a recent theft will need my teacher’s pension to pay the already hired security agency that will guard the block. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;On one and the same day, I am exhausting the last of my reserves, and security is exhausting the last of its resources.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;No wonder my retrospective is turning upon its own back to see if it is supporting or threatening:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In Succession&lt;br&gt;
A nation motley, brewed, amalgamated,&lt;br&gt;
where roads human, peoples different met,&lt;br&gt;
where wars were fought in timeless plenty,&lt;br&gt;
where passions boiled, schemed, and slept&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A nation of the best-worst mankind&lt;br&gt;
In turn, prey, predators, tough, then ferocious&lt;br&gt;
Ransacking ranks of friends to grow own pride&lt;br&gt;
All pioneers slow rash, dispatched, and open cautious&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Inside own claws of fear and self-confidence&lt;br&gt;
Steel hardened fighters, laundered clever cheats&lt;br&gt;
Inside own dens of remnants, nonsense, tokens&lt;br&gt;
Instinctive cowards, insatiable jungle beasts&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A nation wakeful, teamed, sincere, simple, hearted&lt;br&gt;
The builders of the roads to the distant worlds&lt;br&gt;
Earth’s messengers, survivors bred for hardship&lt;br&gt;
The last to live their lives, the new ideas first to serve&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A nation scattered in the need of grouping&lt;br&gt;
Collected in the chambers of the home control&lt;br&gt;
A nation pooled inside wooed order, order wooing&lt;br&gt;
Rejecting places fixed in ordered everything and all&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;A nation motley, brewed, amalgamated,&lt;br&gt;
where roads human, peoples different met,&lt;br&gt;
where wars were fought in timeless plenty,&lt;br&gt;
where passions boiled, schemed, and slept&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.  9.07.2009&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  10.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/10/jars-for-bread-pension-for-security-6485088/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-08:/2009/07/08/rhyming-6469841/</id><title>Rhyming</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/08/rhyming-6469841/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-08T06:35:10+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-08T06:35:10+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;The days, months, years, and decades of educational arguments over world politics and matter-of-fact science, which I and my son have had, though both of us simple philologists and both comparatively poor, seem to be asking an alternative question worth developing into a literary work: How can a future help its own past, even if in the same place; and how can a present help its own self if it is separated in two complete parts, each in a different sphere. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The question has much of Bulgaria’s past and present, of the people who left it to live abroad, of the people who came to live in the country, the people who need just the area, the people who need just the power, the people who are tools in the hands of other people, the people of difference and similarity, the people who act instinctively, the people who scheme and wait, the people of all the different spheres and scales, the people of all the different destinies and lives, everybody really.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line with my future work, here is a retrospective poem:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Rhyming&lt;br&gt;
There’s no hurry to describe the seasons&lt;br&gt;
Enough to look and see the people going past&lt;br&gt;
They seem to liken their all lives’ meanings&lt;br&gt;
to natural divisions by a cast&lt;br&gt;
The autumn person will be nice and cold&lt;br&gt;
like autumn trees which, wet, wait for the night&lt;br&gt;
with pine-tree needles scattered on the ground&lt;br&gt;
and air that’s so strong though light&lt;br&gt;
The spring-time person will be happy, flying&lt;br&gt;
towards a flourish or a conquest&lt;br&gt;
like spring which gives its blessings: arming&lt;br&gt;
the seeds with the potential of days next&lt;br&gt;
The summer person is the scarest to notice&lt;br&gt;
the mist of heat and dust blur off the sight&lt;br&gt;
The summers are forever, ever, thirsty&lt;br&gt;
Don’t get the fruit they’ve grown, working hard&lt;br&gt;
The winter person is the most lucky&lt;br&gt;
Naught there’s to steal, naught there’s to take&lt;br&gt;
The winter, itself, takes beneath its carpet&lt;br&gt;
all, even dreams of spring which will be back&lt;br&gt;
There’s no hurry to describe the seasons&lt;br&gt;
Just say ‘hello’ to each coming phase&lt;br&gt;
If you don’t match, you won’t be greeted: reasons&lt;br&gt;
for this a lot, but you won’t be off-chased&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 18.10.2003
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/08/rhyming-6469841/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-06:/2009/07/06/after-the-elections-6458717/</id><title>After the Elections</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/06/after-the-elections-6458717/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-06T13:18:40+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-06T13:32:48+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Now that a shift has successfully been achieved from where the left wing subtlely implemented the  right-wing projects, through the rush to establish a relevant business and party spectrum, and to the right wing that will have to reinforce with borrowed and established structures the marked social levels and clear the economy of excess, the old orthodox political parity is ready to teach order to the least protected by either business or party life.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;I am now embarking on new lands, as if to complete a long and exhausting cruise that started in the early nineteen-nineties with the grand blue-bannered meetings of the opposition and went through the different business, party, and individual utilization of the information and picture material gathered by the special agencies. Here is a new poem in Bulgarian:&lt;br&gt;
Живот-музей&lt;br&gt;
Отпуснах аз юздите на живота,&lt;br&gt;
не забелязвам дъжд, мъгла и зной&lt;br&gt;
Навярно съм умряла без да мога&lt;br&gt;
да разбера помагат ли, или пък търсят помощ тя и той&lt;br&gt;
Успях от гробището своя паметник аз да изтръгна,&lt;br&gt;
поставих го в живота си като в музей на път&lt;br&gt;
Едни сега се кланят на останките, а други бързат-&lt;br&gt;
настигнат ли музея, те своите следи ще заличат&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 6.07.2009&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  6.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/06/after-the-elections-6458717/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-05:/2009/07/05/poll-day-6452730/</id><title>Poll Day</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/05/poll-day-6452730/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-05T12:55:53+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-05T12:55:53+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Today is poll day that started while the country was still sleeping, and began well east and outside the boundaries of Bulgaria on a promised new parliament. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Almost every person in the streets and on the way to openly vote and anonymously express affiliation or negation seems happier today than at an own birthday party, as if the future of the world depends on each individual choice irrespective of the all the other choices. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Everyone is charged with a certainty, as if with an army rank that provides income and a stage to climb and tribune all the popular opera arias in the ears of someone differently talented who will want to turn up the volume to hear the strength of the masterpieces.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;There is a restricted choice of parties and candidates, all seemingly with ranks and learned arias, and all seemingly with one definite role distributed on the different levels of the same pyramid.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;One will be making a mistake to look for a squit party of ragamuffins to vote for and morally punish the political system for cheating one’s hopes of democracy and freedom, because there are none, and also the system has taken measures to co-ordinate the time of vote and the time of placing a second stamp on the bulletins.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;Today’s poll is returning the country to about twenty years ago when the blue wing of the self-created democrats won over the red wing of the communists that had taken all the well-paid and powerful positions in the country, but today’s poll is also taking the country ahead to where the red wing cannot take the assets they accumulated while introducing the capitalist idea, and where there are very few unpaid or powerless supporters of the blue wing.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;So far, so well. I guess I have an old poem of rank and for the stage:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;SEA BLUE&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The distant shore&lt;br&gt;
The misty sky&lt;br&gt;
The held-up waves&lt;br&gt;
The blue-&lt;br&gt;
so blue,&lt;br&gt;
so blue,&lt;br&gt;
so blue&lt;br&gt;
above the water&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  5.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/05/poll-day-6452730/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-04:/2009/07/04/do-you-live-here-6447181/</id><title>Do You Live Here?</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/04/do-you-live-here-6447181/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-04T13:36:25+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-04T13:36:25+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;It is really stimulating when a round-headed young man of the low crop and of the low military ranks stops one at the front door of the block where one has been living since 1978, and asks: ‘Do you live here?’ and ‘What is your name?’. &lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;No wonder many people, with me among them, look suspicious to any new wave of political recruitment come fresh from the countryside, all burdened under the certainty that they were born and bred to introduce specified order in the environment which they find to be unspecified appropriate.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The political fraction of the socialism past is now retreating into entrenchment and leaving  the business fraction of the transition period to finish the project, both sides fearing qualified and genetic competition, both sides fighting for the few comfortable places in the city, and both sides clearing the ground for the advent of the big predators.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The double thought that  predators have by birth the right to look for prey, and that the patches of grass start on plots where moss and mould have taken root, is consolidating and stimulating to my decision to either enter the opposition between people taking the poll and people refraining from voting, or enter one of the many political oppositions where the candidates have at least once changed party belonging, or have at least once changed a military or a business career for a political one.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line with the above, and to verify my living here, here is an old poem of mine:&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;At Sunset&lt;br&gt;
Believe me, clouds small,&lt;br&gt;
the smallest clouds,&lt;br&gt;
can separate the sun from thee,&lt;br&gt;
can give a lot, a lot of trouble,&lt;br&gt;
you must believe, believe in me&lt;br&gt;
Can ride the sun,&lt;br&gt;
slip down slowly,&lt;br&gt;
the sun can ride them free,&lt;br&gt;
can turn their white&lt;br&gt;
to crispy popcorn,&lt;br&gt;
like demons gaping breathe&lt;br&gt;
The sun has yes, a thousand faces,&lt;br&gt;
three thousandfold or more,&lt;br&gt;
and well-bred is,&lt;br&gt;
the sky embraces,&lt;br&gt;
but blocks to dreams the door&lt;br&gt;
Believe me, dreams,&lt;br&gt;
the shortest dreams,&lt;br&gt;
if brave enough&lt;br&gt;
to stay around,&lt;br&gt;
can help you fly&lt;br&gt;
the slightest breeze&lt;br&gt;
to get rid&lt;br&gt;
of the hideous clouds&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  4.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU &lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/04/do-you-live-here-6447181/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-03:/2009/07/03/a-relevant-question-6441037/</id><title>A Relevant Question</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/03/a-relevant-question-6441037/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-03T09:44:07+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-03T09:44:07+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;The question ‘Where have you been?’, meaning the past twenty years, and the question ‘Where were you?’, meaning the same past twenty years, seem to have different literal and historical meaning to the different people in Bulgaria.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;The more people express- during one or another interview for one or another position or job- that there must be more people ready to actively act for the four different aspects of social benefit: further development, fighting against inherited negative tendencies, social stability, and country growth, the larger is the army of functionaries ready to reintroduce methods where lots of peopled structures control the peopled masses, neither the controller nor the controlled in control of the economy, the science, the capital, or the projects for involvement in social control.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;If one has a look at the Bulgarian political spectrum and the people ready to govern in the name of the country- the term ‘country’ now used to decreasingly imply ‘local population’- one may reach the conclusion that the candidates for power and posts are most appropriately  forming a low dense social cohesion network woven by the collective endeavour of all the segments of the political pie chart, which network is reinforced with inter-party and inner-party similarity and opposition of the basic for the region, and historically developed for social positions, human types, economic dependencies, and coalitions.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line with this, one may say that it is easy to choose whom to vote for at the general election on Sunday- one can vote for the person or party that will produce their next army of individuals ready to govern the assets they have access to, that can be used in the explaining of control failures with assets they have no access to, can control people they neither care about nor surpass in qualification and skills, can be used in the explaining of why a reform has reached a dead end, in one word, people who will climb to, or be hauled into, an upper network of denser rules and a compactability of job positions diversified with foreign specialists in all the relevant areas.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line, here is an old poem of mine, almost rhymed with its own rhythm:&lt;br&gt;
A Treacherous Partner&lt;br&gt;
Life's such a treacherous, now, partner&lt;br&gt;
It will slap its palm onto you&lt;br&gt;
If unsuccessful to crush down,&lt;br&gt;
it'll scoop you in a loving mood&lt;br&gt;
It will, no trick of its now working,&lt;br&gt;
hold your face as if for a kiss&lt;br&gt;
Or it will fend off anybody&lt;br&gt;
who can provide secured peace&lt;br&gt;
It will raise you from the firm ground&lt;br&gt;
to show its utmost respect&lt;br&gt;
Or it will make your pride bend down&lt;br&gt;
to learn its patience and its tact&lt;br&gt;
Life's such a treacherous, now, partner&lt;br&gt;
It needs you say that its your boss&lt;br&gt;
All you can learn from life is how&lt;br&gt;
to be more treacherous and cross&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T. 7.07.2003&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  3.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU
&lt;/p&gt;
&lt;p&gt; &lt;small&gt; &lt;a href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/03/a-relevant-question-6441037/#comments"&gt;Comments&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/small&gt; &lt;/p&gt;</content></entry><entry><id>tag:vptvpt.blog.co.uk,2009-07-02:/2009/07/02/a-new-poem-6434793/</id><title>A New Poem</title><link rel="alternate" type="text/html" href="http://vptvpt.blog.co.uk/2009/07/02/a-new-poem-6434793/"/><author><name>vpt12</name></author><published>2009-07-02T07:06:30+02:00</published><updated>2009-07-02T07:06:30+02:00</updated><content type="html">	&lt;p&gt;Taming the Shrew (to borrow the title and idea from Shakespeare) is a responsible job, and the larger area is shrew and to be tamed, the larger the staff involved in the job. The Balkans have always been untamed due to the incompatibility of the East and West in their major competition for leadership in the directions westwards and eastwards in search of new Americas to discover.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;If there is a saying that quality cures, no matter that the quality matter might be inadequate for immediate use in an ailment, then the Bulgarian politician spectrum is the quality we need to be whole time engaged in neighbour relationships, on household, communal, regional, world, space, etc. levels, fixing problems that are progressively orderly and well classified along the vertical line, though we have to cope with them on the horizontal line.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;It is obvious that the pie chart of the programs of the political parties is promising to accommodate the Bulgarian Parliament with professional politicians working for professional businessmen, working, in turn, for professional politicians of higher ranks, working for professional businessmen on higher levels, and so on. If one program has already been used for economic alterations, it is now in the social sphere and is introducing the stability of allowed oppositions, where a program based on social relationships, it is now giving ideas about economic development.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;In line, here is my latest poem about how charmed I was to see in person a former minister of education, very charmed indeed as I spent half of his mandate looking for a job, and half in criticizing the absurdity of tramping down on the education system to be able to unhitch it from the socialist basic criteria and links and prepare its progressive uprising reform for the establishment of education as one of the many businesses supporting, and supported by, all the other businesses. No wonder a parent during that minister’s mandate warned me that he would do everything so I nowhere got a teaching job-  the parent was a businessman doctor, more or less the god of survival.&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;To/From The Marketplace&lt;/p&gt;
	&lt;p&gt;To/from the marketplace I walked&lt;br&gt;
Past politicians live campaigning&lt;br&gt;
I asked myself the question long:&lt;br&gt;
'Do the survivors double playing-&lt;br&gt;
once at the table con opponents,&lt;br&gt;
once at the table con themselves-&lt;br&gt;
chase in a chain creating problems,&lt;br&gt;
or cheat on all their close friends&lt;br&gt;
To/from the marketplace I walked&lt;br&gt;
Met politicians self-campaigning&lt;br&gt;
Like kings saluted by their courts&lt;br&gt;
Like cats round open trap doors playing&lt;br&gt;
The city, in its work day plunged,&lt;br&gt;
was stepped in skills con new conditions&lt;br&gt;
All played their games at tables large&lt;br&gt;
All carried grudges strong, ambitious&lt;br&gt;
To/from the marketplace I walked&lt;br&gt;
And took along my own life&lt;br&gt;
All through my past with smile mocked&lt;br&gt;
Ahead to traps of pride and strife&lt;br&gt;
V.P.T.  30.06.2009&lt;br&gt;
V.P.Toucheva  2.07.2009  Sofia, Bulgaria, EU
&lt;/p&gt;
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