I am wondering if the central heating installation that is covering the city from under its streets adds one more negative aspect to the global warming, and one more positive aspect to the chance to have serious natural phenomena to oppose.

I am also wondering if paying for not using the cenral heating service adds a negative aspect to my spending the winter scratching, dressed in a coat and a cap, change coats and caps to wash them, and swear all the world in the lukewrm shower. And a positive aspect to the process of youth conservation
where one’s life ends when all one's years are struggled through.

They say that complaining is a national sport for the Bulgarians, and many people who would rather see Bulgaria as a geographical term supplemented by a scattered horde of blaming everything on everybody nationalists, would glow with silent glee to learn that I am almost on their side.

The 40 levs I paid the Central Heating Company for November, which sum includes a little of lukewarm water consummation, and will be double for December, gives me reason to think about two major things: one is the global warming, and the other is the cold I personally live in.

The absurdity to have lots and lots of heat produced to be circulated along the streets to places that cannot afford to pay for an expensive service like this, certainly adds to the extremes: the one of warming the global environment, and the one of draining households of the funds which they would have otherwise used for other sources of winter-time heating.

Of course, the necessity to have one more state structure privatized for naught, and to have the unpaying consumers owe the state money, add two more aspects to the co-operation between the world policy and the local population where excessive funding is drawn from those social pyramids where the economic structures are locally-eliminated, and floding money flows are sent to undeveloped regions and spheres where the same economic structures are established in modernized forms without creating social pyramids.

The only good thing about it all is that what is taken by the Central Heating Company from me is indirectly given to a job that produces installations for making sea water drinkable, with the negative aspects that I am cold now, and that I will never get such a well-paid job, though my teaching English to people unaware of the necessity to learn it, is maybe one of the world-subsided jobs.

In line with the problem of the global warming, to which the transportation of heat all through the city adds, and in line with this thirteenth winter during which I am paying the Central Heating Company for my living in the cold, maybe in line with the jobs which I partially subside- in Bulgaria and in the world, I recall a poem of mine:
GETTING RID OF MEMORIES

At each success I look inside
my cramped and wrinkled past,
and kick a memory aside-
some one that will not last
At each success I gain pace
and stride towards my aim
But leaping back and forth in place,
I got rid of my name
At each success I kick aside
a hated burden cold
And take in victories new pride
And grow old and old
V.P.T.
V.P.Toucheva 18.12.2008 Sofia, Bulgaria