I hope that my book ‘Dorman’ will stay a live proof of the life of a language teacher and the world.
The spelling should have been ‘Doorman’ but would have commonly belittled my endeavour to live in a hostile environment and mirror my life in writing to block any distortion prompted by emotional or business interests.
Many thought, and some said, that I was under some inner, or outer, influence not to welcome the new opportunities which I personally saw as short-lived discrepancies, and fought off with alienation and economic restrictions. A social position like mine didn’t confirm my job positions, especially after I had lost, or cut, many immediate links of belonging.
Now that the country has developed its economic and social levels, and is checking its unwelcome elements out, I guess there may be a historian in my next book to analyze the reality of the present from the point of view of the future. That historian may feel more proud to have said the truth first, and be less chased out of social contact by the fear of someone believing too early.
This is what my book character will say:
‘The pumped with turkey confidence political idols of the period of transition were clearing their image of any slander connected with historical mistakes, and were preventing any bragging that could claim their part of whatever historically recognized achievement.
Those who had pushed through the new policy, those who had created the new environment for quick economic growth or restitution, and those who had organized the old structures to guard the transition acts and the transition tools, were now giving interviews, asked for a historical clearance between the present and the past.
It is a quadrille dance with the journalists who were guarding the policy introduced, were creating the environment for new profits, and were passing through the lines of consolidating control.
There was one hidden thing, and it was that lots of people had given their historical contribution to the sciences to make them capable of measuring the percentage of the natural and the artificial in a human nature.
The was one obvious thing, and it was that the now interviewed politicians had been given their historical chances only because they were the kind of people who learned about their own mistakes after they had made them. They seemed innocent and waiting to be given their next tasks to prove they had learned their lessons, and looked ignorant and neglecting the fact that their next tasks would be to make new mistakes.’
V.P.Toucheva 4.02.2008 Sofia, Bulgaria